Sunday, October 25, 2009

okay this is funny..haven't typed in ages!! hmm.. so what to say? um.. i'm currently sitting for the first half of my finals! and 4 more papers to go! i almost scrapped a car yesterday and took its side mirror off (or my car's side mirror off..yup..that's right..i can drive!! hehe!) while trying to park in a space yesterday. haha!

trying to figure out how to pay online for a ticket i got the other day now.. haha! and oh i figured it out already! haha! krispy kreme's new york cheesecake doughnuts are awesome! and i'm not promoting the doughnuts but honestly they're YUMMY.so um, don't have much to say so yup.. maybe will update another day! =D

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Mood : Jumpy ( I want to dance!)
Currently listening to : Lady Gaga - Just Dance

Hello! As usual, i take AGES to post. oh whatever. anyway recent updates...erm..oh yes!mid year exams were over some time ago..i'm into my last week of holidays now.it's ending already!went to taman negara last saturday..came back on monday..surprisingly i enjoyed it more than i thought.had REALLY painful cramps on the first day and i had to miss the night walk but oh well.went rapids shooting on the second day.it was FUN!i wasn't very wet-that is until our guide did me the 'favour' of completely drenching me in water using the oar he was holding(don't know how to explain how he did it though ^_^ ).

on the last day we went on a boat ride..i liked it! the air was so fresh and clean..and everywhere was green..the water was refreshing...so relaxing *sigh* then we stopped at kelar(?) sanctuary which is a place where they breed a rather expensive type of fish..to prevent the rivers from having no fishes..cause apparently they are over-fished?hmm.

and the people there..are so friendly and simple-minded.nice people.my guide for the boat ride gave me three coconut paus.very yummy.and just looking at their lifestyle..i feel so humbled somehow.it's like there they have a small income and they manage to live on that.and they're happy and all.makes me feel like i take way too many things for granted. =/ argh.i just DON'T KNOW how to describe how i feel about the life there.it has to be experienced to be understood.and OH! i went for the canopy walk too!45m above ground..is HIGH.i was FREAKED OUT.but at the same time i was super excited.guess i can say i was thrilled.but the whole way i kept praying "God help me" .LOL! but i still did it! yay to me! it's definitely worth it.a great experience.

anyway i gotta go shopping now so will post later again! =)

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Mood : Sleepy
Currently listening to : Colbie Caillat - Realise

Mmm..i like this song..so relaxing..all the more i'm dozing off..i smell like mango and vanilla..thanks to the lotion from Body Shop..not that i'm complaning..currently looking at food recipes..so yummy!i'm practically drooling...they look so yummy..that's it!i'm cooking tomorrow!and i'm baking a cookies and cream cheesecake tomorrow!hope it comes out well!hehe!thinking of making dulce de leche too if i have the time..still not done with homework!and my moral assignment!ugh!celebrated chinese new year recently..it was just okay..bit more fun this year..spent more time in malls than in people's houses..lol!okay i'm STILL drooling at all the yummy food recipes..can't peel my eyes away from them..getting hungry!!went for an audition today...sang a duet called quando quando quando with chris..was nervous..was sweating..my face felt hot and my hand holding the mic was shaking..haha!but even if we don't get through..i don't mind..i gave it my best..so thank God..=) but the song is a nice song..it has a very romantic jazzy feel to it..i always feel so woozy every time i listen to it..lol!been eating A LOT recently..took pictures of some of the yummy stuff i had..shall post them here later..by the way..crabtree and evelyn's white chocolate raspberry cookies are quite nice!anyway super tired so i gotta run!

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

quotes-again!








Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation. -Kahlil Gibran


Often it is the most deserving people who cant help but love those who destroy them.


You said u would always be there for me...i guess we have different definitions of always.


One night the moon said to me, "If he makes u cry, why dont u leave him?"...i looked at the moon and said, "Moon, would u ever leave ur sky?"


When u hate it, it always seems to last...when u love it, it goes away too fast.




One of the worst feelings in the world is to have lost the one u love and then still love then with all ur heart...u go to sleep at night thinking of them and wake up the same...but the worst thing is dreaming of him every night, just like u were still together...then u wake up crying cause u know it will never be the same...and u know it could've been ur fault hes gone.


It breaks ur heart to see the one u love is happy with someone else...but its more painful to know that the one u love is unhappy with u.


Well im going to get out of bed each morning and breathe in and out all day long. Then after a while i wont have to remind myself to get out of bed every morning and breathe in and out. And then after a while, i wont have to think about how great and perfect i had it once.


Leave me in peace. Let me sleep once at least without my pillow being wet with tears, my eyes burning and my head throbbing. Let me get away from it all. Preferably the world.~Anne Frank


Id like to believe that ill wake up one morning and not miss him anymore...ill finally understand that when he broke my heart it was for a reason, one i just dont understand yet, but when i do ill know that he messed up and not me.


If u love someone enough, u can still hear the laughter when theyre gone.


Uve changed so much...i guess thats what happens...i wish u knew how much uve changed me...i wonder if ive changed u, if ur life is different because of me...because mines different...my god, u taught me so much, and now we barely even talk to each other...i guess thats what happens...i guess thats just life.


No matter how many times the one u love brings u pain ull never shut them out of ur life if u truly love them.


So what if i told u i wanted u back, so what if i loved u like that, would u break my heart like u did the last time, or is it that u really wanna be mine...what would u do, what would u say, if i told u i wanted us back "that way?"


Dont stress it cause someday the one they gave away, will be the only one their wishing for.



I dont know if im getting better or just used to the pain.


As long as one heart still holds on, then hope is never really gone.


Sometimes u have to lose someone completely before u realize what they really meant to u.


I miss the days when u held me, and the days i heard ur voice...i miss the days when u were here, us falling apart was not my choice...i miss the days when u kissed me, and the feelings u used to show...but more then anything else, i miss the guy i thought to know.


I wish i had the guts to walk away and forget everything, but i cant cause i know u wont come after me and that is what hurts the most.


I never stopped loving u, i just stop letting it show.


Im not going to hate him because u want me to...im not going to be mean to him just because he was mean to me...im not going to fall out of love with him, just because he fell out first...im going to sit next to him, im going to talk to him, im going to be his best friend...unlike u, i do not hate him for what he did, i am not mad, i no longer hurt...i do miss him sometimes more then others, today was one of those sometimes...i miss talking to him, i miss hugging him, i miss sharing everything with him...i dont miss being with him really, i just miss him being there...i want him in my life, and if i have to come home every night and cry myself to sleep because i am not the person who makes him happy, i will...but i will not hate him, i will not be mad at him...i will be his friend.


Ive accepted that we cant be, but ive also accepted that ur going to be that one person i carry with me for the rest of my life...the one that is always going to make my heart jump a lil and my stomach tie up in knots...no matter how happy i am otherwise and no matter how long its been.


No matter what u do, ull never be able to forget that one person from ur past who changed everything u thought u stood for...the sad part is that they probably found it ridiculously easy to forget u.


Missing u isnt the hardest part, its knowing i once had u that breaks my heart.


What's a great love? its when u shed tears and still u care for him...its when he ignores u and still u long for him...its when he begins to love another and yet u still smile and say im happy for u.


People say the only way to get rid of the pain is to let go, but letting go only clears a place for it to start all over again.


Maybe one day u will realize i mean as much to u...just as much as u have to me...but hopefully by then i wont need u anymore...because i already know how that story ends...and to be honest i dont think that i can handle that hurt again.


True love never lives happily ever after...true love has no ending. -K. Knight


Its better to lose ur pride to the one u love, then lose the one u love because of pride.


Dont give up on love, because there is always someone who loves u...even if its not the person u were hoping for.


When the world feels like its on ur shoulder, look at the person next to u and see what they are going thru...dont take life for granted...love the one that loves u, because sometimes we dont get a second chance.


life is too short.grudges are a waste of perfect happiness.laugh when you can,apologise when you should,and let go of what you can't change.love deeply and forgive quickly,take chances,give everything,and have no regrets.life is too short to be unhappy,you have to take the good with the bad.smile when you're sad,love what you've got and always remember what you had.always forgive but never forget,learn from your mistakes but never regret.people change,and things go wrong,but always remember,life goes on!


as we grow up,we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.You'll break hearts too,so remember how it felt when yours was broken.You'll fight with your best friend.You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.You'll cry because time is passing too fast,and you'll eventually lose someone you love.So take too many pictures,laugh too much and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

ramblings..

Mood : energetic,bored,restless
Currently listening to : Angela Ammons - Always Getting Over You

Hey!today i shall type a very long post!lol!i can't remember when but one of the weeks in november i went to Kuching,Sarawak.stayed there for 4 days 3 nights,i think.it was a beautiful place,very relaxing,laidback town and it was very safe!you can walk around swinging your handbag without worrying someone will abduct you!but there wasn't much to do there..i scoured a couple of the malls there and i finished it in less than an hour!but the food in kuching was not bad..reasonably priced i think.oh,but mcdonald's there was more expensive..and coffee bean too i think.and the magazines and food in the supermarket too!my heart was aching when i wanted to buy food,seeing how i had to pay much more for it.lol!went sight-seeing..went to a cat museum which had so many things about cats you'd probably dream about cats at night.to me,the highlight of the trip was when we went to a place where we got to visit and know more about the ethnics living in Sarawak.there was a cultural dance performed and it was really good!i took pictures with a Penan man,visited all the longhouses of the Kadazan,Melanau,and etc.oh and i tried blowing on the blowpipe..and failed miserably..lol!the Penan man was like smirking and said to me "monkey laugh you".i was like "aaahh!".lol!and the weather at night was cooling..afternoon's were REALLY hot though.oh and we bought about 8 'kek lapis' home.crazy!lol!

On the 1st of Dec went to Bali.It was a fun trip..stayed in hard rock hotel for 4 days and 3 nights.the pool in hard rock hotel is amazing!it's beautiful..really like a real beach!there were cabana's here and there..a nice sight!there was a part in the pool where they imitated a real beach..so there was sand in the pool..to make it seem as if you were in the ocean when you stepped on the ground.and there was a fake beach complete with a beach volleyball court on land.and the most amusing thing was that you could listen to music underwater as you're swimming..i practically laughed at that!it's so cute!and they had water slides too..very fun..i was running up and down just so i could sit on the slides..and i was playing by myself..lol!okay but anyway.went sight-seeing to a few temples..and a couple of them had BEAUTIFUL sceneries..two of them(i think) were overlooking the indian ocean..gorgeous..just looking at the waves crashing on the shore made me feel so serene somehow.i had to wear a sarong over my shorts though because shorts were not allowed into the temple as a sign of respect.Balinese culture is very interesting..i totally enjoyed looking at the carvings made on the walls of the temples..it was so intricate.and Bali has dogs everywhere!it's like almost every home owns a dog.oh i remember there was one temple we went to that has monkeys EVERYWHERE and we had to be careful with our belongings such as spectacles,sunglasses,cap,pouch,camera and etc because they would snatch it from us!and they're so fast you won't even have time to grab for your stuff.but if you give them food they'll give your stuff back.lol!our tour guide was a nice man.rather friendly and he spoke english quite fluently..he can also speak japanese!so i had a rather fun time trying to improve my japanese with him.lol!the people in Bali learn at least 3 languages..that is Balinese,Indonesian and English.but many of them can converse in more than that..there are some of them who can speak korean,japanese,russian and french.i really respect them..it's amazing how they can converse in 4-5 languages..and the beach there is beautiful..i ate dinner at one of the beaches and i watched the sunset..it was beautiful!sometimes it just amazes me over nad over again that Earth is such a BeAuTiFuL place.i just can't get over it.lol!the dinner was nice..a HUGE seafood platter for each person which had a whole fish,prawns,sotong,and 2 crabs..we also had soup and a plate of fruits for each person.tell me how i cannot get fat.lol!but i was too annoyed to really enjoy it because flies were swarming everywhere!but the stupidest part was they all went away when it got dark.ish.shopping there is also great!i bought two sundresses..one white with a floral motive and a pink one..also bought a hard rock top..flip flops..handcrafted rings..and a pink bikini!lol!went to do water sports too..did jet skiing,flying fish(which is like 3 banana boats combined and a speed boat lifts the huge 'matress' into the air and you're like 'standing'..in the air.lol..also did parasailing!but i got a cut in the sole of my right foot which hurt.couldn't walk properly..oh well..also did a temporary tattoo in the shapy of a butterfly..had it behind my right shoulder(i sure know how to waste money).ate in the pizza hut there too..which was so different from the pizza hut's back home!they had like so many different pizzas..i didn't know which one to eat!finally decided on one call americanas(i think) and some other one with mayonaise.they were yummy!and i had avocado juice in pizza hut for the first time..i was so thick and yummy..left me feeling so full!lotsa hot guys too,especially caucasians..not like i was looking..lol!oh yea,also went for aromatherapy spa..it was kinda interesting but i felt kinda icky being covered with stuff and lying on a bed with it.and it felt kinda weird having people rub and scrub you all over,and on your chest.lol!but overall it was a really good trip..i love the beach!

came back home..rested for two days..and off we were again to chiang mai!i really liked this trip too..went there 4 days 3 nights..reached the airport and immediately ate ice cream..coz me tummy hurt..lol..dairy queen's ice cream is yummy!had strawberry.met our tour guide..i think he's thai-chinese but anyway he is quite fit..his body is very toned..(can't believe i'm talking bout this..lol) but yea apparently he works out a lot so no wonder.but anyway we went sight seeing of course..to one or two temples i think.we were on tour with another family from singapore so yea it was quite an okay group.we also went to chiang rai.it took us 3 1/2 hours to get there,4 1/2 hours to get back and the road was super windy..had more than 500 sharp curves..before we reached there,went to look at some hot springs where ladies were selling boiled eggs which were boiled in the hot spring to be eaten..then we reached there..looked at a temple and was at mae sai where we went to the hillside tribal village..got to see many tribes such as akha,palong and the long neck karen.took pictures with all of them..but the akha tribe..which is the tribe where the women wear huge metal earrings..had so cute children i just HAD to take a picture with them!then we were also at some place where we could see two different countries and they were all separated by the river..i was on thailand..and opposite me across the river was Laos..and up ahead was myanmar..i was so amazed.we drove to the border of myanmar where i had yummy ice cocoa with some very yummy biscuits i knew i would have eaten tons of if there was that many given to me.the drinks there are so cheap!like cocoa is 250 or 450 baht.fruit drinks for 250-300 baht.i totally went gaga over fruit drinks.i drank one really delicious one made of papaya,pineapple,fuji apple and strawberries.YUMMY!and it was only 300 baht!how can i get it at THAT price back home?strawberries are also everywhere..you can get a cup at 200 baht!cheap!and i ate pomegranate too for the first time..it's yummy except hard work because i had to take out all the seeds seeing how i didn't want to eat it.and i bought a strawberry daifuku too..it was interesting.lol!the night bazaar in chiang mai is really good too!i bought bauble lights which came in three colours(pastel pink,magenta and white),a handbag.i also had my nails painted for only 100 baht and put some sparkly strands into my hair.and all these i got for less than a 100 bucks!i'm so glad..lol!and the weather there is cooling..very nice.oh yeah,DVDs there are super cheap(pirated of course)!but not as cheap as it was in Bali which was 3.50 bucks per DVD.pirated also.in chiang mai it was about 7.50 bucks.lol.still cheap i guess?had thai massage there too..painful!and i don't think i'll be able to get used to eating northern thai cuisine everyday.oh yeah,also went to this thingy called kantoke which is like a cultural show but you can eat your dinner there while watching..some of the performances were not bad but i wasn't really paying attention..i like the one where the guy danced with swords though.but the fried chicken there was good!lol!but i know that if i do go there again,i'll definitely drink up on fruit juice!lol!

okay..i've used up quite a fair bit of my energy already..i feel calmer.lol..will post later!

Saturday, November 24, 2007

recently i've been doing a lot of things...and had no time to blog here..haha..went to a orchestra..a spanish one..it was good..the tenor had an amazing voice..am taking part in the choir for my church's christmas musical..i'm so excited!guitar exam's next week..barely practiced..=S feeling guilty for not studying at all..argh..bought a purple dress and wore it to the orchestra..but sometimes do you just feel so down and hurt and upset that you feel like hiding in a corner or just sitting on your bed and bawling your eyes out?what if you don't know why you're hurt?or maybe you do know why but you don't want to admit it..what do you do then?i'm so confused..=S

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

The Poem

Hey..i found this poem meaningful so yea i'll just post it here..kinda lazy today..and i have to go study..argh..

The Poem
I knelt to pray but not for long,
I had too much to do.
I had to hurry and get to work
For bills would soon be due.
So I knelt and said a hurried prayer,
And jumped up off my knees.
My Christian duty was now done
My soul could rest at ease.....
All day long I had no time
To spread a word of cheer
No time to speak of Christ to friends,
They'd laugh at me I'd fear.
No time, no time, too much to do,
That was my constant cry,
No time to give to souls in need
But at last the time, the time to die .
I went before the Lord,
I came, I stood with downcast eyes.
For in his hands God! held a book;
It was the book of life.
God looked into his book and said
"Your name I cannot find
I once was going to write it down...
But never found the time"

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
Happy moments, praise God.
Diffi cult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God.