My Life and all the Random Little Things: September 2007

Mood : Feeling slightly emo yet happy..is that possible?
Currently listening to : Gotta Go My Own Way - High School Musical 2

Hey!!I had a rather nice day..went for a wedding ceremony..got ang pau..hehe!had choc chip ice cream..haven't had it for a long time..it was yummy!hmm..and i've been munching on all d nice kuih available currently..there's this brown kuih which is abit spongy and it's shaped like a tiny angel cake..i like it!tried on some bikini's today at the mall but they didn't look good..i am yet to find the perfect one for me!*sob* lol!i also bought pumps..they're white..my first pair of pumps!i'm so proud..!but so much for my 'not spending money on shopping' rule..argh..anyway,i found this on a friend's blog..i find it extremely meaningful..i can really relate to it..*staring into space* hope she doesn't mind me for taking it..=/ and i edited it slightly..lol!

break-ups often happen.
we break-up because we stop compromising.
don't you think so?
it's because you stop giving in.
sometimes we break-up because feelings fade away.
or may be because we've fallen in love with another.
do you blame him because he fell for another?
or do you blame yourself because you weren't good enough?
to some of us, break-ups are a big impact in life
it hurts you so dearly, but not intentionally.
it may change your life, but that's if you let him in too deep.

"he can't hurt you if you don't let him"

so, why take the risk and hurt yourself?
why not live free and free from problems?
why fall in love when you know you're not ready?
break-ups often hurt another.
it's not like we want it to happen.
but sometimes its for the better.

"if it's meant to be, it's meant to be."

you cant force love, even if he's stop loving you.
look around, you're not alone.
it takes time to move on, may be a month or two
sometimes may be even a year.
take your time, no one's rushing you
its easy to fall in love, but its hard to fall out of love.

"everything happens for a reason"

and now i found these quotes on some website and i find them nice so yea..

you don`t think that i knew you well?
maybe i didn`t know the exact town you were born in, or the time of day that you were born.
maybe i didn`t know the names of all your aunts &uncles, &maybe i got some of the names of your old friends mixed up.
but don`t try to tell me that i didn`t know you.
i could see by the way you looked when i passed you in the hallway what type of day you were having.
when you answered your phone, i could tell what you were doing or how much fun you were having.
i knew when something was really wrong, because your face lost its brightness
& i knew when you just needed a friend because i could tell from the sound of your voice.
don`t try to tell me i didn`t know you.
i knew you more than anyone else.
don`t say i forgot about you either.
because it`s obviously you who forgot about me.

i guess its typical to cling to memories you`ll never get back again & to sort through old photos of a summer long ago.

i never thought i`d reach another end, when all i want is to be myself again. so why so soon? we were having so much fun. sometimes, i wish i`d never learned to run. ask me why i`m sad, i`ll say it`s not so bad. i`ve done too much growing up today

i always thought we`d make it through anything, & i kind of still believe it. yeah, i have a new boyfriend & you found someone else, too. but i still have this feeling deep inside me that someway, somehow, we`re going to end up together.

no thanks to you, i`m scared to fall in love again. first of all, you broke my heart when i expected you to be the last one to do it. and now, i`m left with my heart broken & in pieces & you don`t even bother to notice. it`s sad, cause all along i thought you knew me better than everyone else. but now i am starting to wonder if you even knew me at all.

sometimes we love people so much that we have to be numb to it. because if we actually felt how much we love them, it would kill us. that doesn`t make you a bad person. it just means your heart`s too big.

i don`t want another pretender to disillusion me one more time
whispering words of forever..playing with my mind.
i need someone to hold on to
the kind of love that won`t fly away
i just want someone to belong to.

isn`t it funny how you can think you`re completely over someone
but if you drive past his house,
stumble upon a meaningful song you both shared,
or even get a glance of him on the street..
just in an instant, it can change all that?
and you start to remember the pain.
and that hollow space is feeling more & more like the Grand Canyon with every second that goes by.
but you bury these feelings deep down, so deep that you`re sure no one will be able to tell.
to the outside world, you smile & act like nothing`s wrong or will ever be.
everything`s just perfect.

i sit here crying, and you know what i`m realising? that it`s okay to cry, cause i lost something that i really cared about, something that i`m not too sure that i can ever get back, you. and even though i know your not crying over me, i still can`t let go. cause i love you. i`m not sure how. but i do & it`s okay to cry.

i can`t stand him hurting me. i can`t stand him using me. but unlike him,i just can`t walk away. i can`t forget what we had. it`s not that easy for me to let go of something that was once in my life.i guess it actually mattered to me ..

you taught me many things
like how it feels to miss someone so bad
it feels like a part of you is missing. but
i can tell you one thing
now that you have gone
i never will forget you
you left your mark.

dance in the streets. sing in the hallway. shake it like a laffy taffy. scream at the top of your lungs. randomly talk to people. eat candy until you wanna puke. throw things at the screen at movie theaters. make a new friend. freak people out. trip over nothing. do the "mary poppin" foot thingy. fall in mid air. push your friends into random people. pass notes in class. leave notes in random people's lockers proclaiming your love for them. fall in love with someone all over again. hug your friends. give "special" hugs to your "special" friends. smack a guy across the face because you feel like it. defend yourself. tell your parents you're glad to have them. be crazy. jump high over little rocks screaming, "i can conquer anything." just live it up.

"Tell him that I don't love him and that I don't need him anymore.Tell him that I don't miss him and that I don't want to see him at all. But most of all..Don't tell him I said all this with tears in my eyes."

It's scary to think
how different your life would be
if you never met the person
that changed EVERYTHING

This is love, isn't it? When you notice someone's absence and hate that absence more than anything? More, even, than you love his presence?

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