have you..

have you ever wondered how it would be like if things didn't turn out this way?
have you thought through everything that happened yet still don't understand it?
have you ever wondered why people would say things they didn't mean
make promises they couldn't keep,and that forever really isn't forever?
have you felt like you wanted to say everything that is contained in your heart
but you look around and find no one to tell it to?
or are you just afraid?
afraid to trust people
afraid that when you do trust that person
they'll let you down?
afraid to open your heart and let that person see "you"
have you learned not to hope too much,not to expect to much,not to give too much?
have you felt what it's like to give a part of yourself away
only to realise that maybe it never meant much to that person?
have you ever wondered if you'd ever experience those feelings again?
you know that one day you will,but are you scared?
have you ever wondered why you want the memories to go to the back of your mind
yet they flood your whole mind everytime,everyday?
have you ever felt the feeling of your heart breaking or being pierced through
and you don't know what to do except shed tears and wish it'd go away?
have you ever felt that painful feeling?
have you ever felt the way i feel?
have you???

"fab" life..

haven't typed in here for some time...so let's see..recently i've been feeling really emo..ugh..i went to joshua's birthday party yesterday..it was kinda fun except for the fact that in sick..i have gastric and wind..it's a killer!been going on for 3 days already..so painful..i am currently ADDICTED to one tree hill...it rocks!!james lafferty is HOT!!and the world badminton championships just ended today and it was okay..btw..bao chunlai is SO HANDSOME!lol..i've admired him for ages..ish ish..lol!school holidays just started two days ago so i painted my nails and they look really pretty!at least it's one way to perk myself up..lol!i also really like howie day's song "Collide"...it's so soulful..i just like listening to it..i also went to a book fair last saturday and i bought three novels at really cheap prices!!